In Greece you keep a memorial 3 days after the funeral, then 9 days, 1 month , 3 months and every year.

Today it feels like there is purpose of this. 9 days has passed and yesterday was the first day that I kind of climbed out of my bubble. I even went to the hairdresser. BUT it was the first night that I could not sleep and in between had the strangest dreams.

It will be hard to find out how to live MY life, to fill out the space that Vangelis had and he needed a big space. We always make compromises when you are a couple. How do you know what was a compromise , when it had become one life for the two of us?

I thank you all for your nice words and the thoughts you have sent me. Forgive me if I have not thanked you one by one.

Savvas has been my rock and Dora his. Vangelis’ cousin, Vassilis and his wife, Hara, came from Athens the same day Vangelis died and stayed with me for 6 days, which was a blessing.

And I have Mavros. He makes me get up in the mornings and go out for walks and then I realize that I live in the most beautiful place in the word, have the most fantastic friends and that I will find my way, even if it is not so much fun anymore.

Thank you.

Noomi Edin-Pavlidis is Vangelis Pavlidis’s wife . More about Vangelis Pavlidis here